Well kids, i just got my Ap scores back, i got a 2 on everything (as usual) except for AP ART

i got a 4 ^_^

that made me happy.

Even with the super depressed mood im in now lol

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but i was just thinking about college and all that fun stuff (>.<
and how things will be with that, and how i want to live life, blah blah, and how life really seems all too plain for me.

It upsets me in a way. Life is so coordinated and neat for the most part, you know, the usual problems, ups and downs, but nothing really good. Nothing here anyways. I really think im going to have to leave the country one day, it depresses me alot to be here sometimes when i think of everything else thats out there waiting to be seen. I guess i just want something different, but not american different, i want to go away from here and live in a foreign country as i have always wanted to.


My mother upsets me too, i know shes my mother
but she really pisses me off sometimes. I feel shes VERY overprotective, and if youve tried to get me out to go to a party, you know exactly what i mean.


so do whores. But they piss me off all the time.

I hate it when people havent been dating a year even, and "OH were getting married", or "We love each other and no one else forever."
ive seen a bunch of that lately, i think you find love later in life, i think being a young person is a time for trial and error, and to learn from mistakes. The only problem is, that a lot of people nowadays are oblivious to their obvious faults and still continue to make them.

But to each his own, right?

meh, it just makes me wonder how my life will turn out, how things will be, and who be there with me.
Makes me wonder if ill ever travel too.

ive always wanted to move to some foreign place.
I was thinking either England or Finland
Maybe France, since my french has improved pretty well!

not sure, but thats in later time isnt it. I know its something to worry about later, but it bothers me now, its just a hard feeling to shake off, especially without discussion or writing, and i just ran out of lined paper, and im not using my drawing paper (^_^)

What should really bother me, is if from ten years from now, im still wondering about these things.

Im sure ill be over myself in the morning, no big deal. But i tend to have these thoughts a lot more as the days go by. Things bother me more, and im wanting more in my life. Im also wanting to get out of this house where im stuck at the moment. It bothers me so. Im not quite sure why though.

But ive always wondered if i will ever really be content with myself throughout my life. That is all to be told in time though.

and something else, i reallllllly dislike it when people try to write something romantic and Shakespearean like, but it sounds like mush because its not worded right or rhythmically , and its almost mocking good poetry......

I think im done for now, okay?

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